Poem Not where I belong


Help! I’m trapped in my head. At this trap of a job, feeling like I’m in the wrong place. Doing the wrong thing. My passion is positioned inappropriately. I’m not doing the things I’m supposed to be. I keep coming here knowing it doesn’t satisfy me. Looking online seeing people that might be happier than me. I don’t mind busy, but busy minds me. I can’t find other words to describe this, just… this shit is no longer me. I have a fierce and overwhelming desire to be free. I recognize that I’m surrounded by individuals that don’t understand me. Isolated by my ambitions, blinded by my bills. Letting old standards of purpose leave me stagnant, depressed. Voicing my dreams to the wrong individuals, knowing they can’t help. Crying when the rare recognize that I shouldn’t be here. Shackled by fears of imperfection, loss, and abandonment. I don’t want to be selfish. I don’t want to be too consumed with me. But I do want to live out a different story. Tired of giving my gifts to non believers. Tired of putting my passion to spare time, while I’m drained by this job. Tired of their doubt, self doubt, and getting tapped out, by the 9 to 5. Help. Im trapped in my head. Trapped in this work. Closing my eyes and daydreaming about my true work.

The Freedom Collection

The Freedom Collection was inspired by my desire to express the emotions of my peers, family, friends, and other relationships of the African diaspora. I aimed to illustrate my favorite arts, as well as beauty, black love, history, and reality.

I want any viewer to momentarily get lost, in each piece. I want the viewer’s mind to create its own story from what it sees.

The Freedom Collection is also a celebration a wonderful talents, most known through Black expression. All of the things that the African Diaspora has done, will do, and of course will continue to do. A celebration of the free spirit, which will never be tamed, trapped, or enslaved. And a celebration of the beauty of every hue, curve, Loc,tress, or curl.

Owning a piece of this collection is like having a balloon, that never pops. A celebration of colors, life, blackness, love, and success.

I’m happy to present this collection to the public for the first time in September 2019, at I Am Cafe Ashland. The cute little Café is located at 16395 E. 14th Ave. San Lorenzo, Ca. The Freedom Collection will be on display for the entire month of September. Please stop in, enjoy a small meal, and tag me @artbytararocker.